monsters!


i feel strange, like the heart of a winter man that has thawed for a victrola in a quiet way. i mean, i am his heart, i don't know those things. i am not responsible for melting out, i'm like real happy uh? yesterday i was thinking about the ttc killer on the loose in toronto who stabs random girls like me on the subway for not paying attention to life. i started to notice the man sitting across from me, his feet were caressing a crunchie bar wrapper and i waited for him to look down and see, he never did. i had an idea that he was the killer. his shoes were green. i should not get killed ever.

things are feeling really good, i don't know, i'm sorry. like last night when you were looking at the sky you could totally feel good about it. i was just floating all down town with the lights and squirrels in the park dying slow and a blue glowing sign behind my eyes, i was thinking about the internet.

then when i reached home i had some hot chocolate and phoned up my mother who is now back together with norm so i hate her. jennifer gave me her blanket and a lighter, we left steph a message. i forgot to take the garbage out again. there is a visitor downstairs, i will make him do it. come to my bedroom door, visitor. oh yeah i am sick. i also need groceries and garbage bags, garbage day garbage gray, fay wray.